That one last wish

I spent the last 3 days waiting for you to show up at my door and say it was all a big mistake
You were supposed to be here on the 9th
That you love me
You love me still
You never stopped loving me
I kept on waiting on this grand gesture
This ultimate sign
This romcom scene

But then I remember reality
I remember that you refuse to have any contact with me
I remember the things you've done
And I know deep in my heart you would never have the spontaneity to do that
Or the courage
Or the heart
And probably not even the love.